The launch date of this shop is quickly approaching and I’m noticing the full moon, the impending mercury retrograde, and acknowledging my own fears and imposter syndrome.
This morning I heard a podcast say, “If you feel those feelings of “I don’t belong here,” that’s okay.” It’s not bad for me to feel scared and to feel doubtful. I have to remind myself of this.
We live in an era of abundance and manifestation gurus. They tell you to get rid of all of those negative feelings—well, I’m a cPTSDed out artist with a Pisces moon and I’m a sensitive Sal, harshest with myself than anyone else.
I feel like we need to reframe this whole thing. Like yeah, obviously I want to visualize myself successfully running an online shop of my own creations, but I can also not run from my fear. I can notice my imposter syndrome while also acknowledging that it’s rooted in trauma and that these observations do not determine my future level of success or ability to magnetize abundance.
I do believe in myself. I do believe in what I do, because I would do it anyway. I would do it if I never showed anyone. The fear is in the showing of it all to the public, and that’s okay.
